School Bullies

I knew it would come at some point but I was really hoping it wouldn't at all. Keira is being bullied at school by a boy in her class. She doesn't seem all that fazed by it but I'm really upset and angry by it. She's mentioned him a couple of times at home and yesterday I spoke to a teacher about it. She said that as far as she was aware they egged each other on. Then in the afternoon when Paul picked her up from school the deputy head teacher pulled him to the side to tell him about what had happened during the day. Apparently this little boy punched Keira in the nose whilst putting his jacket on. He claimed it was an accident, yet when she cried he laughed and called her a 'weirdo'. This upsets me the most because Keira has Autism. And obviously, her behaviour and her general manner can seem a bit odd to someone who doesn't have Autism. The school is going to be dealing with and speaking to the boy's parents (I think) but what I wouldn't give to have a minute with him for a quiet word. If only. I don't understand it because I would never let my child talk to anyone like that. And if they did they would be in serious trouble for it. They are being taught to respect everyone and everything.
Now I'm terrified for her future in school. Especially high school. People can be so cruel. I wish I had the money to send her to school for kids with difficulties or home school her!

Nutmeg Kids Haul

I've been really curious about Nutmeg by Morrison's clothing range for a while now but no store near me was big enough to have clothes in it. Recently a new shop opened not too far from me and it's huge! After seeing some pictures of lovely outfits from there I decided to take a trip in to see it all for myself! The clothing range in this shop wasn't huge but they did have a nice variety and it's all very reasonably priced.
I got a few things for Macey, a shower proof jacket and pants for Logan, and pants for Keira. They didn't have any actual clothing that I liked for Keira. I only wish they had an online shop! I didn't manage to get a picture of Logan's jacket but it's covered in dinosaurs! Which is perfect for my dino obsessed 2 year old!

American Psycho by Brett Easton Ellis

This book took me so long to finish! I started reading it towards the end of my pregnancy but struggled due to tiredness!
I think a lot of people are mixed about this book. It has very detailed descriptions of sex and violence which I think put a lot of people of. It's not for the faint of heart! I'm pretty strong minded and not overly easy upset. I pretty much loved this book! Read if you're into murders and executions ;)

This And That..

I'm going to try my hardest to blog more often! It's so hard to find spare time with 3 kids and house to look after!

Macey is now 7 weeks old (8 weeks on Friday!) She had her check up with the health visitors today. She is now 10lb 5oz (almost the same as Logan at birth!) and 56cm long. She's still doing really well. Looks so different already!

Logan and Keira are doing great! Logan got his nursery placement for August! It's exciting!

Off to make a 'posts to write' list!

TMI Tag

Sorry for the lack of posts! Life is a tad bit hectic these days! I was tagged by Lulu (ages ago! Sorry!!) at A Mumma's Time Out

1. What are you wearing? 

Black leggings and a black top with white polka dots on.

2. Ever been in love? 

Yes!

3. Ever had a terrible breakup? 

I wouldn't say terrible but it was still bad.

4. How tall are you? 

5'1"

5. How much do you weigh? 

Hahahahah....

6. Any tattoos? 

Just two. Got a few planned but god knows if I'll get around to them!

7. Any piercings? 

Just my ears now

8. OTP? 

 For me.. Paul. In my dreams.. Alexander Skarsgard! Haha

9. Favourite show? 

I watch too many. Game of Thrones, The Walking Dead, Vampire Diaries, The Originals, True Blood, Supernatural, Hannibal, Hemlock Grove, Awkward, and loads more. I also have a list as long as my arms of TV shows I want to watch!

10. Favourite bands?

 Rob Zombie, Marilyn Manson and Stone Sour

11. Something you miss?

Besides the obvious... being pregnant!! 

12. Favourite song? 

Again, I have loads. Sleepwalk by Jonny and Santo, Immigrant Song by Led Zeppelin, Enjoy The Silence by Anberlin, Carry On My Wayward Son by Kansas, Lullaby by The Dixie Chicks, I Was Made For Loving You by Kiss, Coming Undone by Korn.

If you haven't heard any of these songs then you should go listen to them NOW!

13. How old are you? 

28

14. Zodiac sign? 

  Leo

15. Quality you look for in a guy? 

Someone funny, sensible and kind.

16. Favourite quote? 

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." - Dr Seuss.

17. Favourite actor? 

Tom Hardy, Tom Hiddleson and Christian Bale

18. Favourite colour? 

All of them!

19. Loud music or soft? 

Depends. I usually like loud music.

20. Where do you go when you're sad? 

My bed

21. How long does it take you to shower? 

Usually takes me 15-20 minutes in the shower. If I have a bath I'm in for about an hour and a half reading!

22. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 

10 minutes without make up, 15 minutes with. I have to rush everything these days!

23. Ever been in a physical fight? 

No

24. Turn on? 

Nice arms. I have no idea why.

25. Turn off? 

Arrogance

26. The reason I joined youtube? 

I joined it to store videos of my kids

27. Fears? 

Death. And spiders. I'm getting better with the spider thing.

28. Last thing that made me cry? 

Honestly. My kids driving me insane!

29. Last time you said you loved someone? 

Earlier on to Macey

30. Meaning behind your youtube name? 

I don't remember what it is! If it's Sinnamonspyder then it's because I couldn't get cinnamonspider. It's my favourite Jack Off Jill song. 

"I won't try. And everytime I tell that lie, I live without guilt.

I won't cry.  And I hope you love your life. And live with your guilt."

If it's some variation of crash crash. It's my favourite Murderdolls song.

"I'm at the end of my noose I've got nothing to lose. I'm digging my own grave and that's thr truth. My self esteem is low and I'm so high. And I don't give a f**k if I live or die. Just bury me in my self pity. Can't even get myself to talk to me. I'd kill myself but it wouldn't help. Can't someone put me out of my misery. I'm going down, I was born to die, I'm going down, I'll never say goodbye. Crash crash. It's a hit, it's a bang, it's a smash"

At the times lyrics to both were appropriate.

31. Last book you read? 

Joyland by Stephen King

32. The book you are currently reading? 

The Descent by Alma Katsu

33. Last show you watched? 

Game of Thrones

34. Last person you talked to? 

Logan

35. The relationship between you and the person you last texted? 

It was either my best friend, Gemma, or my sister in law, Cassandra. My sister in law just found out she's having twin boys! She already has twin girls!

36. Favourite food? 

Macaroni cheese or quesadillas

37. Place you want to visit?

Prague

38. Last place you were? 

Down to the doctors earlier on today if that counts

39. Do you have a crush? 

No

40. Last time you kissed someone? 

This morning

41. Last time you were insulted? 

I'm not sure but it was probably by Paul!

42. Favourite flavour? 

Raspberry

43. What instruments do I play? 

None anymore. I used to be able to play a little guitar, bass and keyboard. Wasn't exactly the best. I also played violin as a child.

44. Favourite piece of jewellery?  

My Minnie Mouse Swarovski necklace and earrings. I love loads of costume jewellery as well. 

45. Last sport you played? 

LOL! Championship chocolate eating!

46. Last song you sang? 

In My Life by The Beatles 

47. Favourite chat up line? 

I didn't have one but now I think Lulu's one may be my new favourite! HAHA! ...Did you just fart? because you blew me away!

48. Have you ever used it? 

No, but it would be hilarious!

49. Last time you hung out with anyone? 

Today if hanging out with my mum counts? Lol!

50. Who should answer these questions next? 

Anyone who wants to do them!

General Update

So, life with 3 is a bit crazy! Macey is a really good baby (not that there's such a thing as a bad baby). She likes loads of cuddles. She's still on 2oz bottles but I think she might be ready to move up to 3oz. She generally settles down properly for the night at around 11pm (ish), then she wakes some time after 3am, then usually between 5am and 6am. She's happy to go back in her moses basket after her bottle to go back to sleep. The health visitor was out to the house on Wednesday and Macey now weighs 7lb 8oz. So, she's doing great! Although after a little problem I've been told that I'm doing too much. I've continued on as normal, doing my washing, ironing, etc. Thing is, if something needs done in the house I will not sit around and wait for someone else to do it. And I'm too proud to keep asking for help. My stupidity is going to make it longer on my healing process.

Keira and Logan have settled with Macey amazingly. I'm especially surprised at Logan. I expected some jealousy but he's been amazing. Only problem at the moment is that he's going through the terrible 2s (if you can even call it that) big style. I feel like I spend the majority of my day yelling and that makes me feel like a terrible mother. He just won't take no for an answer. I'm about at my wits end with him.
They both had their hair cut last week. Keira's is a lot shorter than I expected it to be but it suits her. And she likes that it's easier to manage now.

We also went into Paul's work with Macey and Logan on Tuesday last week. (Which was also too much for me. Long walk from train station to his office, then all around a shopping centre and back to the train station). After visiting his work we took Logan to the Disney Store. And I went to a couple of other shops while we were there.
Yesterday, Keira went to Asda with her dad. The birds of prey display was outside so of course she wanted her picture taken with a bird!

Baby Macey

Baby Macey arrived on 21st March 2014 via scheduled c-section. She came into the world at 11.26am and weighed 7lb 4.5oz. I can't believe she's finally here!

Here's her birth story:
I had to be at the hospital at 8am on 21st March. I was told that I was the only scheduled c-section for that day so unless there was an emergency I'd be taken early. My Mum was my birth partner as Paul didn't want to be in the operating theater. When we arrived I was taken to the high dependency ward and given a bed. We were just to wait until it was time to go down. I was visited by midwives (both of them were the midwives I had during Logan's birth!), theater nurses, anesthesiologists and the surgeon. I decided to get sterilised at the same time as having the c-section so the surgeon went over every thing with me and even gave me possible scenarios in case I wanted to change my mind. As much as I would love to have another baby I will not take the risk of having a third c-section. I have three beautiful children to think about now. They will always come first. A part of me is sad that I will never be able to carry another baby but I know it's the best thing for me and my family.
I was finally given a gown to get changed into at about 10am. I was then taken down to the theater. It's so weird walking into the theater. Everyone was already there getting things prepared. I was asked to sit up on the bench and that's when the fun began!
It took almost an hour to get the spinal to work. That was the worst pain. They had to push their thumbs right into my spine to try and find the spaces. I have a giant bruise on my back from thumbs alone! Then the pain when they were inserting the wire thing.. they had to try and find the right place but it was giving me bad pains in my hips and spine. At one point I thought I was going to pass out so I had to lay down on my side. I thought they were going to just put me to sleep. I was so relieved when I finally felt my toes go numb!

Once the spinal took effect they got me to lay down on my back and started setting up the blind so I couldn't see what was happening. They double checked I was numb right up to my chest. Which I was. Then they began! The midwife told me I'd here a sucking sound like when you get to the end of a drink with a straw, and that was when the baby was ready to be born. The noise is the waters being sucked out. So, I just kept listening for that sound! As soon as I heard it I started crying because I knew she was almost here! They had to use forceps to get her out as she was a bit stuck up in my ribs. It left a little bruise on her cheek. She started crying straight away which was amazing! They wrapped her up and handed her to my mum and my mum held her next to me so I could see her whilst they did my sterilisation and fixed me back up. When it was all done they put Macey on my chest and wheeled me back to the high dependency ward. I was in there until around 8pm. I pretty much just held Macey on my chest the entire time! I let her go so I could get some toast and a bed bath. Paul took her and got her cleaned up and dressed. 

I was up and out of my bed to be moved to my room. I got a room to myself which was brilliant! I don't really like the whole open ward thing. My bed had a co-sleep crib on it as well which made my life so much easier for picking Macey up. I needed help all through the night for the first night. Help to feed and change Macey because I was still too sore to try to sit up and then lay back down etc. Plus I had a catheter so it made everything awkward.  

I had a two night stay at hospital and was allowed home on the Sunday afternoon because everything went so well! Macey is now 11 days old. She's doing amazingly. She only take roughly one and a half ounces each bottle but it seems to be doing her fine. She wakes every 2-3 hours for a feed. And she's starting to have a little bit of awake time throughout the day! She lost 4 ounces from her birth weight at the beginning but yesterday she was back up to 7lb 4.5oz! So, she's doing very well!

I'm also doing great. I have a bad back but that's down to the spinal. I was dreading getting my stitched out. I had a dressing covering my wound constantly so I didn't really know what was going on down there. However, when the midwife took my dressing off we discovered that my wound had been glued! Relief!

Keira and Logan both stayed at my mum and dad's house for the first week. They were just coming over to visit through the day. It was mostly because they are so boisterous and I'd just had major surgery. I didn't want to risk any injury. They're back home now of course and have adjusted brilliantly to having a baby sister. Logan is always very concerned if she cries etc. Think he's going to be a protective big brother! =) It's all kind of went over the top of Keira's head at the moment. But, she does give her baby sister love and hugs all the time! 

I've had a few tearful moments over the fact that I'm now infertile. But I know I've definitely done the right thing for myself and my family. I'll get used to the idea in time!